This school year has been a roller coaster for me. I have been through a lot emotionally. This year started off as kind of a downfall. I was going through a tough time at home and wasn’t able to handle my emotions effectively. Over time I decided that I wasn’t going to let anyone, but myself, control my emotions. After I approached a place in my life of self love I began to become really happy. I don’t let things get to me the way I used to. I’ve learned to rely on myself because nobody has me the way that I do. Since I’ve become self reliant I’ve made a lot more friends because my friend’s moods no longer determine the way that I am feeling. My favorite memories from this year are being around my closest friends. I love being around them because they truly are the funniest humans I have ever met and I truly love them. Next year I am looking forward to moving out of Lee County. I am excited because I want to try a new school and I am sure that whatever happens is God’s plan. I am really thankful for all of the events that have taken place that have made me a better person. You have to have a rainy day in order to grow as a person. I feel like being able to go through so much while I’m young really improved me as a person and I wouldn’t have been prepared for when I go through things when I am older. This has been a huge learning experience and I thank God for it.
Author: rileysblog169
An Icon
This year my fashion was WACK. Mainly because I HATE ASKING FOR MONEY. I want to get my own clothes. I like buying my own things. I’d have my own money if I had a job, but I am waiting until I turn 16 to get a job due to the fact that my mom works all the time and I can’t legally drive myself to work alone. I envision many outfits in my future though. I really enjoy piecing things together and my style is very 90’s-ish. I like Kanye West as a fashion designer. he inspires most of the outfits that I put together. The other 40 percent of outfits that I envision are inspired by Karl Kani. I really hope to have my own fashion line one day. “Fashion is a natural place for art, love, history and culture to mix” (Lagrave 4). I love to create.Fashion can create a first impression and I aspire to up my fashion in the future. Fashion is fun and I really enjoy it. When my clothes look nice, I feel great.
This is one of my favorite outfits that I have pieced together. The white overalls make the colors pop. The shirt is a 90’s style shirt by Karl Kani. The shoes are “Old Skool” Vans that I custom made to match with my shirt. And the fanny pack is worn to the side on top of the overalls. OVERALL I AM IN LOVE with fashion. I truly enjoy it and it makes me beyond happy.
In my Feels Playlist
I have several playlists on my phone and one of my playlists includes my “In my feels” music. These songs on this playlist are my favorite & they motivate me when I’m at my lowest.
Marvins Room – Drake
Exchange – Bryson Tiller
Hurt You – The Weeknd
Psycho, Pt 2. – Russ
Coaster – Khalid
Get You – Daniel Caeser
Let Me Love You – Mario
Shot Down – Khalid
Easily – Bruno Major
Come and See me – Drake
Coloring – Kevin Garrett
Jungle – Drake Boo’d up – Ella Mai
My Boo – Usher
Adorn – Miguel
Anniversary – Lamar
Found – Ella Mai
1 plus 1 – Beyonce
Yo – Chris Brown
Redemption- Drake
Think about me – Dvsn
Provider – Frank Ocean
Harveston Lake – Johnny Rain
Make Luv – Brent Faiyaz
Location – Khalid
Dark Times – The Weeknd
Sober – Childish Gambino
Frustrated – R.LUM.R
Nikes – Frank Ocean Get Like – Kehlani
Honey – Kehlani
Have You Ever – Brandy
Same Kind of Drug – G-Eazy
The reason that I created this playlist is because these are some of my favorite songs and they put me in a better mood when I’m feeling down or out of it. I love these artists because they are all different and make me happy in different ways. These songs can change my mood in a matter of seconds and I am very grateful that music exists because sometimes it’s the only thing that can alter my mood. Music is honestly a beautiful creation that can do many things for one’s soul. Hopefully this inspires others to listen to some of the music that I listen to. My happiness comes from music & I am forever grateful for this beautiful music.
Random Thoughts
I have a couple of random thoughts right now. It isn’t much, but I was just wondering if other people ever thought about the same things. I am a strong believer that kids that were born between ‘99 and ‘03 are their own breed of people. 
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We don’t really associate with the tide pod eating generation, but we know about when disney channel and nickelodeon actually had good shows. Something else that I have recently thought about is that when I was younger I hated taking naps.
This is a picture I took of my friend’s baby brother sleeping.
I never took naps at nap time, I never napped. Now that I am older I love napping. I truly appreciate naps. Naps are a blessing. This is really odd, but I wonder what people would do if their internal organs itched. 
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How would you scratch them? Does this drive you crazy thinking about it too? I’ve always wondered when hamsters came about.
This is a picture I took of Khai’s hamster.
I have never seen a hamster outside just chilling and going about their days. Babies look like mini sumo wrestlers, seriously.
This is a screenshot from a video that my friend sent me of her niece, that looks like a baby sumo wrestler.
They have fat necks that are barely there. They’re chubby everywhere… Imagine a baby dressed as a sumo wrestler. Actually imagine two babies sumo wrestling. Last random thought, but my great grandma and great grandpa were so cute when they were younger. 
This is one of my favorite pictures of them together.
Meeting my Internet Friend pt. 2
There’s this trip that’s going to literally change my life if I ever get the chance to actually go on it. I really hope that I do. Okay so I made ANOTHER internet friend. This on isn’t a catfish though because we face time all the time, but I’ve known her since March 11th of 2015. It seems a little weird that I know the exact date that we met, but I have really good memory when it comes to birthdays or when I met someone or dates just in general. Anyways, back to this trip that is going to be life altering. The most unfortunate thing is that my friend lives 2,240 miles away from me. All the way in Los Angeles, California. My friend’s name is Kira. Over the past 3 years that me and Kira have known each other we have grown extremely close. We tell each other everything and I feel really blessed to have made such a good friend and have grown so close with her, but we have really planned this trip to the T. The reason it would be life changing for me to meet Kira is because it would just be really nice to be in her presence and be able to say I traveled and had an awesome experience with a great friend. Since I have met her we have both been saving money to see each other and I am hoping to go and see her when I am 16 or 17. I am currently 15. We figured the amount that we would have to save would be around $3,000 and we split it down the middle. I save $1,500 and she saves the same. Right now I only have about $700 saved for this trip, but when I get a job at 16 I am planning on saving most of my money for this trip so that by the summer I can go see Kira. This was a little lame, but I’m just looking forward to seeing my friend.
R.Alewine
Unpopular Opinion: Friday The 13th Is Really Lame
Friday the 13th is lame. There’s this superstition that Friday the 13th is unlucky. The reason this came to be is because 12 is believed to be a lucky number. There are 12 months in a year, 12 in a dozen, and many other things that involve the number 12. So 13 is seen as “unlucky.” Friday is also seen as an “unlucky” day because most crucifixes took place on Fridays, including Jesus’s. Friday the 13th is just seen as one of the most unluckiest days. Over the years there have been many events that have made Friday the 13th so unlucky though. One event in history that has made people believe that this day is so unlucky is because William Fowler founded the 13th club that had a meeting that took place on Friday the 13th. During this meeting they did things such as walk under ladders and break mirrors. This is why people started saying that when you walk under a ladder or break a mirror it is bad luck. This is also why some people skip the 13th number on an elevator and go straight to 14. In numerology 12 is seen as complete and 13 is seen as odd. Pretty much from my research I have discovered that Friday the 13th is “unlucky” for many different reasons. When I started researching at first I was thinking that there was going to be one reason for this “unluckiness”, but there are in fact many reasons. I don’t believe in bad luck or superstitions about Friday the 13th.
The Time I met This Girl From The Internet
This picture of my best friend’s facial expression was my mood the whole time. (I took this picture on facetime)
Okay so for my blog I decided that I wanted to do a story time of how I met someone on the internet and then we met in person. To keep things confidential we’re going to call this person “Taliyah.” Alright so once upon a time I was talking to this girl named “Taliyah.” “Taliyah” lived about 5 or 6 hours away from me and has a cousin that lives in Albany so I was begging her to come see me. Sadly, I was getting a little impatient because it had been 3 months of us talking everyday and we still hadn’t met yet. I was getting irritated. She finally wound up telling me that she was coming for the weekend and I was really excited to see her. There was a game that Friday and I was already planning on going to it; so I just asked her if she wanted to tag along with me and my friends. She did. I was extremely anxious and I thought she was lying about coming. She wasn’t though, unfortunately. So I get to the game late because I took forever getting ready and I felt terrible for getting there late, but I intended to make up for it. When I got there the first person that I saw was my friend Angel. I had already told Angel about her and showed her a picture. I asked Angel if she had seen her and so her exact words are “Is she thick ?” AND I BUST OUT LAUGHING. I AM LITERALLY CACKLING. I told her I didn’t know because she didn’t send me any body pictures. She then proceeded to say that she may have seen her. I call “Taliyah” to ask where she is and she tells me. I went to where she was with my friend Illiyah because I was super anxious to talk to her by myself. I walk up to her and her cousin and it’s super awkward. Her cousin compliments me and she catches my attention because she is hiding in the hood of her jacket. “Taliyah” literally put her hood of her hoodie on and pulled the strings. All I could see was her nose. I look over at Illiyah and we both laugh extremely loud. Okay so I am now curious as to why this girl is hiding her face and I attempt to take her hood off and she helps. THIS GIRL WAS A CATFISH. WHEN I TELL YOU SHE DIDN’T EVEN LOOK LIKE THE SAME PERSON. I was a little shaken up, but proceeded to talk to “Taliyah” because why not? I felt bad for being late because she had come so far just to see me; I was going to make up for it by buying her some food. I asked her if she was hungry and she said she was so we got off the bleachers and were walking towards the concession stands when suddenly… someone called her phone. This girl was on the phone for literally 30 minutes. I was getting aggravated because I wanted to go and sit back down and watch the football game. I walked up to her took the phone and put it above my head because she is 4’7 and I thought it would be funny. She starts reaching for it and I busted out laughing and handed it back to her. This is where things get interesting. She says the first and last two words of our conversation. Our conversation
began AND concluded with the words “shut up.” It was the only two words she had said to me the whole time. I walked off and hung out with my friends for the rest of the night. I texted her that night and told her I didn’t want to talk to her anymore. That’s it.
Best Weekend Ever
I can’t lie. Saturday was one of the most eventful days of my life; it was also one of the greatest. It wasn’t the greatest day because it was my birthday though. It was the greatest because it was spent with my best friend. I tend to talk a lot about my best friend, it’s probably just because she is basically me; she’s just in a different body. Our chemistry is unbelievable. We just connect on a whole different level. The whole time we were together we were cracking mad jokes, laughing, singing, and I was extremely happy. She is my everything. She is a really great person and she’s very influential, in the best way possible. I feel like I can come to her about anything and she is very trustworthy. She makes me the happiest out of everyone. Literally anytime we talk, my mood changed and I get extremely happy. Khai always knows how to keep a smile on my face. Other than me getting to see my beautiful best friend, my closest friends came to my birthday dinner. I feel so blessed to have been able to do that and spend time with some of the people that I love the most. My whole weekend was incredible. I could not stop smiling at all. This weekend was an unforgettable one. I hope that this will be something that I will always remember because it’s truly one of my most favorite moments in my life. I’m really blessed. 
R.Alewine
My Top 10 Pet Peeves
(Somebody walking extremely slow in front of me.) R.Alewine
I actually have a ginormous amount of pet peeves and very little patience with others. That isn’t a quality that I like about myself, but I have it so I might as well embrace it and write a list of pet peeves that I have.
My first pet peeve that I have is when people interrupt me. I hate being interrupted with a passion, it makes my blood boil.
My second pet peeve is when people lie to me. Especially when it isn’t a good lie, COME ON! Do better. Why lie?
My third biggest pet peeve is when people get in front of me just to walk as SLOW as a TURTLE. I swear I have road rage when I’m walking in the hallways.
My fourth pet peeve is when couples say I love you every 2 minutes. Sheesh. We know you love each other and all, but why do you have to express your love for each other every 2 minutes?
My fifth pet peeve is when you goto a restaurant and instead of a couple being regular people and sitting across from each other at a booth… they sit right beside each other. That literally makes me cringe.
My sixth pet peeve is when people scrape their silverware across their plate. The sound is horrifying.
My seventh pet peeve is when people chew with their mouth open. Why can’t you have the decency to close your mouth? Why do you have to be a horrible human being?
My eighth pet peeve is musty people. Please wear deodorant. Take care of yourself.
My ninth pet peeve is people who get offended over everything. It isn’t that serious. Why must your feelings get hurt with every breath i take?
My tenth and final pet peeve is when people smoke cigarettes while I’m in their car with THE WINDOWS UP. You’re killing me! Roll the windows down PLEASE.
My Best Friend Has Changed My Life
I know that it’s a little crazy to say that one person has the potential to change your life forever because friendships don’t usually last forever, but either way… I hope that this one does. My best friend makes me happier than anybody in this world ever could. She is seriously always here no matter what. Anytime that I call she always picks up the phone and listens to me vent about whatever. She is probably one of the most reliable people on this entire Earth. THIS HUMAN LITERALLY PUTS UP WITH HOW BIPOLAR I AM AND HOW RIDICULOUS I ACT ALL THE TIME. I am so blessed and grateful to have met this girl. She always knows what to do in order to keep a smile on my face and make sure that i’m good. Lakhai always keeps me company and is always here no matter what we go through. I could call her at any time of day and she’ll pick up the phone within seconds from the time I dial. We can literally laugh about everything and joke on each other without getting offended. That is one of my favorite things about our relationship with each other. My relationship with her has been life changing because she has changed me. She has made me a better person and she continues to make me better and better every day. If I didn’t have her in my life, I would be very depressed. I can say that she is one of life’s greatest blessings for me.
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